Right now, I am just frustrated! I want to be amazingly brave, remaining confident and positive throughout this whole process. But instead, I am just sad...and incredibly overwhelmed. And I've decided that this is okay. No, I am not going to wallow in my self pity and continue to feel sorry for myself. BUT, I do think I am allowed a day to do this knowing that I WILL pick myself back up and keep charging forward. I have two choices: 1) I can stop taking all my medications and refuse to do the diet (more information to come on this) only to remain in constant pain and potentially prevent us from being able to start a family or 2) I can take all my medications and follow the diet to the best of my ability, hopefully feel a lot better, and potentially start the family I continue to dream of. The obvious choice is #2. So yes, today I am upset and feel slightly lost and definitely not confident about this next part of our journey. But tomorrow, I will rise to the occasion and face my challenges head on. This is, however, the life I have been given and I plan to make the most of it!
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I love you Jaime!!!! You ARE allowed those feelings. So if today you are ready, some words of encouragement:
Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. ~Ambrose Redmoon
Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point. ~C.S. Lewis
Courage is being scared to death... and saddling up anyway. ~John Wayne
You have my #, know I am here ♥
Thanks Holly...I needed to hear that today! I appreciate you! Love ya girl :-)
I say you should invite the sister in law over to sit BY the pool and drink WHITE wine and eat chicken on pumpernickel bread. :-) Love you! You can do this!!! (Though if you get skinner I may hate you... ;-))
Haha-you crack me up Kristin!!! And actually, we can sit IN the pool now!! ;-) Love ya!!
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