"The Only Thing We Have to Fear is Fear Itself" FDR

Ahhhhh! I can breathe now. The anticipation of this surgery has been weighing heavy on my heart ever since I learned it was in my near future. It wasn't so much the fear of the surgery itself, but the fear of the outcome and revelation the surgery would bring to us. It is surreal to think that a short, 30 minute time frame can change your life forever, for better or for worse. It is crazy how we work ourselves up so much with fear and anxiety, only for it to be over and done with when we open our eyes and hear those comforting words. It's ironic how we fear so many things in life that never actually come true, or that do come true and turn out to be the most wonderful blessings.

My surgery was successful and actually went better than expected! It was anticipated that I would have to stay the night in the hospital after having the uterine suspension. After discovering an incredible amount of Endometriosis and treating it, my uterus resumed it's original position. Isn't it crazy to think that I had so much extra tissue in my body that my uterus wasn't in the correct place? Isn't it also crazy to think that if I hadn't pushed for this surgery, they might not have ever discovered this? I have to admit that I was a little (A LOT) upset when I discovered they hadn't done the uterine suspension....this was before I discovered why. My initial reaction was the thought that they had cut me open for NOTHING; clearly I was wrong! My fallopian tubes looked great so no cleaning was necessary in that area. They went ahead and put holes in the cysts in order to clean up my ovaries. I am supposed to go see a GI doctor soon and start something called Lupron Therapy. The only things at this point that I can tell you about this is that, 1.) It is to treat the microscopic Endometriosis that is still in my body 2.) It will put me into early pre-menopause 3.) It will probably last for about 6 months 4.) I MIGHT have to give myself shots & 5.) We cannot start trying to get pregnant until after I finish this treatment. Yes, I am a little nervous about all of this but do not have enough information yet to make a good judgement about things. So, all in all, things went great and Dr. Holt suspects this will resolve a great deal of my issues. I cannot begin to describe my relief...

Although I have had some rough moments of pain and discomfort, my recovery has went well. I will spare you the image of my stomach, but picture 4 small incisions and a lot of bruising, dried blood, and glue. The first three days I was walking like a turtle, but I am definitely on the up and up now and leaning towards walking like a slow rabbit! It wore me out, but I was able to shower, shave, wash and blow dry my hair today! I'm sure James appreciates this! ;-)

I have more posts to come in the next few days surrounding this same general topic-read if you wish, or don't if you'd rather not! Hey, you can't blame me for this one...I've had A LOT of spare time on my hands and A LOT of time to think (you can only read and watch TV & movies so much)! Today was my first day back on the computer so I have finally been able to put it in writing! So, STAY TUNED! ;-P