In Complete Awe

I have dreamt about this day for a long time now, yet never knew if it would actually come.  It's not because I doubted God or His ability to answer my prayers, I just wasn't sure if what He had planned for our lives and what I wanted were aligned.  The great thing is, I had accepted this...yes, I had days that the pain overwhelmed me but I had truly given this to the Lord and was willing to accept the life He had in store for us.  I knew, whatever it was, that it would be far greater than anything I could ever imagine.

So, as I looked down at the pregnancy test on Sunday morning (March 27th @ around 7:45am) and read that life changing word "pregnant," (and after the initial shock wore off and I asked "really?" several times) I began to cry and thank the Lord for this tiny, beautiful blessing that is growing in my body.  What a special, indescribable moment in time!

Yes, I'm PREGNANT!!!

I had to think quick because I wasn't quite sure how I wanted to share the news with James.  I sat on the floor of our bathroom and searched the Internet on my phone for ideas on how to share this amazing news.  James had not gotten out of bed yet and even asked me if I was okay at one point-I guess he was confused as to why I was being so quiet.  I found several great ideas but really didn't want to keep this from him all day....nor did I think I'd be able to!  Often times, James and I will write messages on our bathroom mirror; sometimes it's a bible verse to memorize, sometimes it's a sweet message, and sometimes it's simply a list of things we might need to purchase.  So, I decided to write a special message on this day to share our great news.  I wrote the following:

"God is BIGGER than all of this!! Right daddy?"

SURPRISE DADDY :)

I then had an arrow pointing down with the pregnancy test placed underneath it.  I tried to go about my normal routine and finish getting ready for church.  It was actually quite funny because James did the same....not noticing the writing on the mirror until he had already taken his shower!  I can't help but share that he was cleaning out his ears at the time and continued to do so as he looked from the mirror to me and back again.  He was like "seriously?"  We were both just in awe and spent that sweet moment together rejoicing and thanking God for His grace.  I took a second pregnancy test about an hour later just to confirm that we had not gotten a false positive.  I told myself that God is still good whether or not the second test was what we wanted it to be...and I meant it!  I won't deny that I was very relieved when once again I saw the word "pregnant!"

Twice confirmed!

Yes, I'm PREGNANT!  I want to shout it from the rooftops-I can hardly contain myself!!  But, I also feel that I should wait until time has passed before I share it with the world.  We are just going to continue to pray and believe that this will be a smooth, healthy pregnancy and that Baby Paradis will grow into the precious child that God created "it" to be.

Excited Mom!

Thrilled Dad!

BLESSED PARENTS :)