Why Not?

This is the question my dad asked me over my ever flowing tears as we discussed my “situation”. He said Why Not? believe that I am going to be able to get pregnant and have children of my own. I tried to express my feelings to him-- that I don’t want to get my hopes up only to be disappointed in the end. He said Why Not? believe it is going to happen and then accept whatever does happen, whatever God blesses us with. Although I hate to admit when my father is right, I think there might be something to this theory belief of his. It’s kind of like the old saying goes, “If you think defeat, you’ll be defeated but if you think success, you will be successful.”

Not that I doubted it, but today I realized just how much my parents love and support us....through this journey and all those to come. They continue to pray for us, even when I can’t seem to find the words to utter to Him. They even offered to help us financially if the costs become too much to bear (fertility treatment is pretty pricey). I feel truly blessed to have such wonderful, caring parents who love me so much (even when I may not deserve it). Even though my dad, a very religious man, doesn’t know from the next person whether I will be able to have a child of my own or not, he told me today that he truly believes I will be pregnant within a year--just a feeling he has. He told me this with the utmost sincerity and honesty that I couldn’t help but believe him--I want him to be right.

Although I do not negate having a positive yet realistic attitude before, I will entertain this belief my dad has and try to somewhat change my way of thinking. Who knows...maybe my seldom moments of dreams will turn into a lifetime full of dreaming. I mean, Why Not?