The rundown of the last cycle is as follows:
Tuesday, January 25th-I actually started my period on my own....and boy, was it HEAVY!!! Apparently a heavy flow is common when using clomid (I was worried at first that something was wrong).
Thursday, January 27th-I went in for an ultrasound and everything looked good.
Saturday-Wednesday, January 29th-February 2nd-I started the clomid and took it for 5 days.
Saturday, February 5th-I went in for another ultrasound and the clomid was doing it’s thing...I had SEVERAL follicles.
Wednesday, February 9th-I was using an ovulation kit as instructed and for the first time ever, I got a CLEAR :) (yes, that’s a smiley face). I was home alone and actually said “shut up” out loud because I was so shocked. I couldn’t believe that I had actually ovulated on my own. I did feel bad though that I had forgotten to take a test the day before and could have potentially missed the first :). We had already had an ultrasound scheduled for this evening. They calmed my nerves by telling me that I hadn’t messed anything up by forgetting to take the test. This time, I only had 1 follicle of good size-15mm. Of course this crushed my hopes since the last time I had 3 follicles much larger than that. But, I was quickly reminded by that still small voice inside that God is God and can get me pregnant off of 1 small follicle just as well as He can off of 3 large follicles. My hope rests in Him and Him alone!
Wednesday & Thursday, February 9th-10th-We were told to have timed intercourse that night, the next morning, the next night, and every other day after this.
Friday, February 18th-I took a test WAY too early and got an error sign. I felt this was God’s way of telling me to be patient.
Tuesday, February 22nd-I had a test that one of my many doctors had given me that can predict pregnancy up to 7 days after conception-I took it (early) and it came back negative. This was a hard day (to say the least).
Thursday, February 24th-James wanted me to take another test (on the RIGHT day) just to confirm....just as I expected, negative.
So, that’s that! I don’t really have much to say about it....it’s just hard and I have about 200 different emotions going through my heart all at once! And honestly, I’m not excited about starting another round.....another round that brings with it all of the steps mentioned above, more money, & potentially more heartache. Will it ALL be worth it if we are able to conceive-MOST DEFINITELY! Is it hard to remember that when times are rough-ABSOLUTELY! Although I have moments when I tend to forget this, I know He is still in control and I am excited to see what He has planned for our lives! I will end with this verse I found as I was studying the story of Hannah this weekend (book review to come soon):
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish it’s work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” --James 1:2-4
*I love this-it’s obvious He still has work to do in us :)
2 comments:
I think that if it happens its going to happen with an IUI. I fully expect the dr. to prescribe better FSH's. Maybe you should ask.
BTW, with the first IUI I waited until the Dr apt. to test. I think I did this because I *knew* I wasnt. With the second IUI, I didnt wait because I had a *feeling* I was. That feeling was due to two things. 1. I didnt have the pain I usually have the week of starting my period. 2. My boobs were tender. This is not stuff i was Looking for either. You have heard that women say they just know...well its funny b./c I just knew I was over and over and over and over. Then that one time I didnt feel like I just knew for certain but I had a sense of wonder. That was new for me. Turns out I *knew* Ha.
Now I have read and read and talked to drs about clomid. According to what i have read, clomid ONLY really works within the first 3 months of using. Sounds to me it only did its magic on you the first time. I am *hoping* your Dr. sees that and gives you something more. You have a limited amount of tries as you put it and the least you can have is 100% participation from your ovaries. And another thing...
PLEASE tell me you are having SEX before the Dr. tells you...as in the week before ovulation, every other day.... hmm???
We are all works in progress but our glory comes in the fact that we were all made by the sweet, perfect hands of the Lord! You are a true inspiration to so many people. Keep the faith Honey - you are doing great :)
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